fwordcomesinhandysometimes

f you.

爱得太深

是，我是真的很爱你。

谁然我知道我需要面对事实，

但我却没办法失去你，忘了你。

当我一看见你送我的礼物，

回想我们一起度过的困难与快乐的回忆，

我的眼泪不停的再留，

我真的很想念你。

从你离开到德国的那时期，

我已经深深地把全心爱着你。

真天就想上网和你聊天，等待着你。

我想对你说，

对不起，我的过错实在是太多。

对不起，对不起，对不起！

我很想你，

我还是那么地爱你。

这全都是我美好的回忆。

unexpected, but believe it or not

GUTEN TAG!

I've been a lousy blogger, so do forgive me okay?(: so anyways it was my birthday yesterday! OMG-LING-LY I did enjoyed it. which was unexpected. alot of thing was unexpected to me. I appreciate people whom did it for me! thank you a million LOVELY humans!

Thursday ;

so yuqin brought me to movie and dinner. we watched, REPUNZEL! it was wayyy tooo nais to even express it! lol its a must watch ! you won't regret it! after that we had dinner at SUSHI TEI. food was....okok lah (: I enjoyed mine, but he didn't I think? oO lol anyways by the end of the day, it was filled with joy and content! THANK YOU Y.QIN!

Friday ;

lunch at LEVAIN! awesome cheesecake and awesome food with awesome jianwen & yuqin! then dinner with bfffs! day filled with FOOD ! then after that catch up a lil at Library..

Then....fun part is when jw brought me to maison. like seriously, it was crazy! freakin got myself drunk without any intention! hate it to the max! vomit like nobody's business. but luckily got jw, if not........ * you dont wanna know

lastly, Thank You;

yqin,jwen,yting,wgeng ! you four meant so much! loadsss love!

and to people whom wished me through text messages and facebook! loveee much!

family members ! extra lovee!

without you guys? I have no clue how yesterday would be. so THANK YOU A MILLION! MWAHHH! xx

making it all fully used

movie ystd with brandon and munloong was perky.

after dinner at taiwan streets went over to borders.was looking thru recipe books and making hell load of squeaks.luckily the sales person didn't sent us out. if they did, thank you very much HML!

watched iron man2, its not that nice? well prolly I still prefer Ip man2 and I don't mind watching 2nd time.(: its an awesome movie. do not missed it.

after a long day in college all I want is something to release my tension and movie is always a great way to do so. anyhow gotta start saving money. just fell liked it(: no reasons.

goodday peeps.

reminiscing the ol'days

Hello there(:

okayy, last night hanging out and dinner with yj, kk and ab was fun(:
I miss those days when we used to spend day and night at TTC and laugh our asses off like nobody's business. make fun of things which only we know. those were the days :(
well as time passes, everyone has their own plans, their own dreams to achieve, their new directions, everything seems to be brand new after we graduated.
one thing that would last is our friendship. we still plan to meet up, plan to have a day trip, plan to visit our dearest friend in nilai, plan to make everything a success.

Honestly, you guys are the greatest friends that i've meet in such 5 years. we are all still as close as we were back then. Im glad I still have you guys(:

yj, hy, cm, u-w. this four awesome possum friends that I met back when I was form 1. we are the closest among all(: I miss you guys !

& yesterday yj started with a really funny inside joke. LOL his worm and kk's fire dragon. wooots! hy, where is your sand? LOL LOL. and I swear, I've never laugh like this for so long :(

I miss you TTC crew's like mad!:(

when can we all have a proper meet up?(:

yj, cheer up! you have us by your side(: we love you!

simply irreplaceable

when im not using my brain when I speak, Im brainless & thoughtless.

when I thought I was doing something that would bring me benefits when Im not, Im stuck yet again thoughtless.

when I thought I was ready to do something that would practically change my whole life, IM NOT.

Im not ready, and I dont want to even loose it.

honestly, you are irreplaceable, nothing can really beat you. you're the only person who gives me all the strength I need when I fall deep straight on ground.

what else more can I ask for?

forgiveness maybe?

godbless me & you

<3

you meant alot,

& I love you

when you never notice, it happens two times harder

HI there,

recently there's been ups and downs in my life. the up's is that people around me are still as awesome as before. I smile, I laugh, I joke. make fun of things when its not even funny and feel lame all over it, blur every single morning and feeling sleepy as always. this is me. fun? its more like a routine. but though i'm still happy being like this everyday without fail. yet again, part that upsets me most is always the problem with my relationship. it brings me down the most because no matter how hard I try i'm still not good enough. I wanna be patient. I don't want to go back to the old me anymore. I really hated myself back then. when I thought everything is finally over, it happens again, again and again... partially its my fault? I don't want things to be repeated over and over again...when can we put a fullstop? I love myboy. I promise myself that I will never ever hurt him but why do I always end up hurting him the most? am I even doing the right thing? am I the person he deserves? am I going to change myself? when.....when am I going to start doing the right thing instead of giving him so much nonsense?

Sometimes things are too deep to understand. things inside is even harder to describe. I wonder if someone could actually express even without a word? how much I hope there's a scientist which can invent a machine that can read people's mind. before that, send all my thoughts to that person. Sometimes, I even wish I were a mind reader. that I could read your mind and make every single of your thoughts count. well, perhaps someday... how much I wish I can understand you more, therefore there wont be any misunderstandings. when I see people get mad at each other my heart really sink. I hated to see that happening infront of me. but what I don't realize was I used to be like that last time.

I hate it..and I don't want that to happen ever again. but can I really promise this time? or is this just another hopeless thoughts? nevertheless, I choose to believe myself, have faith in myself, love and appreciate mybf now before everything turns bad again.

bedtime.

xx